your dirty laundry.

i love reading people secrets & that is one of my secret haha.

POSTSECRET. i wonder whose genius idea it was. there's probably thousands of postcards, yes postcards that people send anonymously to this guy called frank. then he share it via the postsecret blog. cause sometimes you can't live with your secrets. you just feel like sharing, but don't know who you can trust or don't want people to know who you are or don't want people to misjudge you because of your secrets. & sharing it is like a load off your shoulder. not only there's the postsecret blog there are the books too, a combination of all the postcards. i've seen one of the books, really awesome. & i really admire some of the postcards. just shows that all over the world there are dirty little secrets in everyone's imperfect life. from the cleanest little secrets to the dirtiest of its kind. some sounding quite the same.

if you have not seen POSTSECRET, do so. maybe it will help to open up your mind a little. maybe some of YOUR secrets are the same as theirs. http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com/

25th for 31st.

after weeks of planning. it went unplanned. nevertheless glad you like the surprise gift. special.

"you say it best, when you say nothing at all."

so emo right?

of rough days that i'm facing now, i don't feel that i'm lucky anymore. sometimes i feel like no one understands me. i feel that 2008 is such a bad year. maybe i've started off on the wrong foot, maybe this is the end, maybe this is a beginning of something wonderful, maybe... this is another life experience i've to face & learn from, that will make me a better individual. i hate to live life of regrets, so i've always learn to accept whatever happened as fated. only god knows very well what has written for each & every one of us. all we do is plan & try to make the 'right' choices.

i realised now & appreaciate it ALOT that i've found myself friends that really care. those i can call as my real true friends. who laugh & cry with me. who i can count on to be by my side when the going get rough. who won't once judge me. who i can put my trust on. who can sometimes think wiser than me. who stay by my side no matter what goes. who still be around even though we have less meet ups. who keep in touch even though we are all busy with our daily lives. who update each other, every means possible. yes they're that special to me.

i feel as years passed, we've become closer. knowing one another inside out. we are not ashame to share our problems, learn to listen, give & take in advice. i hope that it will never get awkward between any of us. i hope that this bond will grow stronger as we grow to be 'matured' adults haha. (we still need to work that one out for now)

eventually, we will have our own families. but i hope we will always stay as how best friends should. we will have outings & gatherings, look back & laugh with tears in our eyes at all those childish things we used to do.

i'm really glad that we've cross paths. as the saying goes, there are no strangers in this world, just friends we haven't met. so i just want to dedicate this post & say a

BIG THANK YOU with lots of love,

for always being there. let's have a group hug someday lol.

~~~

xoxo, anna

Lesley Lesley.

how long does it takes for one to read a novel of 629 pages?

i really don't know how long i have borrowed this novel ROSIE by Lesley Pearse. all i know i've renewed it for 2x cause i can't get to finish it before the due date. usually i am able to finish one book in like a week or so depends on how interesting it is & how less busy i am. i did before finish a book in a few days if it is seriously captivating. i've before borrowed ROSIE but the first time, i read it halfway & ended up returning it a few days after the due date lol. this is my 2nd time in borrowing this novel. cause i feel the need to finish what i've started. but it has been a mth or so that this novel is still with me, lucky enough no one reserved it. a few more pages to go before i wrap it up.

then i will start off with A LESSER EVIL by Lesley Pearse, which i bought a mth back. Lesley became one of my favs, ever since i came upon one of her novel HOPE. i adore the way she writes her novels & how the character she potrays have a very strong persona in a way. but i think i really should start borrowing design books, somewhat to built up more knowledge in that area. maybe a few biographies & religious books would be good too. any recommendation?

i am a bookworm. why do certain people dislike reading? hey knowledge is power.

somewhere in between.

finally i had a little change of scenery

& this is definitely neither here nor there.

random.

yes the long weekend is here. where to? i wish i could just go on a neverending getaway road trip. that sound like fun at least. & listening to MIKA makes me gay. just so if your vocabulary is limited, i don't mean gay literally. Gay = Happy. so here's another one of their song lyric to share.

You talk about life, you talk about death, And everything in between, Like it's nothing, and the words are easy. You talk about me, you talk about you, And everything I do, Like it's something, that needs repeating.

I don't need an alibi or for you to realize, The things we left unsaid, Are only taking space up in our heads.
Make it my fault, win the game. Point the finger, place the blame and toss me up and down,
It doesn't matter now.

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again. This is not about emotion, I don't need a reason not to care what you say, Or what happened in the end. This is my interpretation, And it don't, don't make sense.

The first two weeks turn into ten, I hold my breath and wonder when it'll happen, Does it really matter?
If half of what you said is true, And half of what I didn't do could be different, Would it make it better?
If we forget the things we know. Would we have somewhere to go?
The only way is down, I can see that now.

It's really not such a sacrifice. And it don't have to make no sense to you at all, this is my interpretation....

Happy Ending

Don't you feel that some music lyrics reflects how you really feel for the mo.? I do.

This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory, No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love, Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life, But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory, No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love, Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life, But not together.

2 Down.

Finally.

Advertising class is over and done with...FOR NOW. I probably have to face Ferdi again if I get to major graphic design. Which I hope to. He is ok, a little annoying at times haha. Surely there will be ALOT more to learn about Advertising. Maybe if I'm hype up enough I'll start borrowing some design books.

I hate that every module we're taking lasted only for a mth. What the heck did we REALLY learn beside the basics, knowing how to manage our time to meet datelines, how to manage projects, brushing up our skills etc. In ITE I've learned so much more about DESIGN solely. VSC should have made a tutorial class instead of just project based.

Even tho' I'm not that satisfied how our final execution was for the advert final assignment, we did what we can for the short period of time. I know everyone wanted something alot better for their execution. We all have standards don't we. So the next time I'll try to start on branching out on my ideas early. Try to stretch it & not restrict my ideas. Branch out so much like a tree. I just hate creative mindblock!

Ya somewhat, Ferdi is right about us not managing our time properly and juggle between Prepress class and his. Everyone gets distracted don't we. Mistake taken, lesson learned. I just hope he give me a good grade (-_-).

Dear Mum.

I know Mother's Day was on Sunday. Almost everyone has a blog entry about their Mother's Day celebration. Never really celebrated ours. To me everyday is Mother's Day. I don't need a cake or presents to show the love. She know we love her nevertheless.

& something to share from http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com/

Mad Rock.

So today was the so called trial competition, to let the freshies feel how it is like in a sport climbing comp. I was seriously freaking nervous. Cause you will only get one chance to impressed them & show that you deserved to be in TPSC. And guess what, out of all the nervous & jitterbugs I was having, I REACH THE TOP LAH BABE! Haha & proudly am one of the 2 girls among the freshies, that manage to reach the top. Watching Nina reached the top first, I felt very competitive. Told myself one way or another I must reach the top. The route was quite ok even tho it looked scary at first. At the top I even manage to look down & gladly to say I conquer my fear of height!! All I was thinking was climb climb climb! And now I'm beginning to feel very comfortable with the slanted part. Even if the force of gravity is pulling you down, you just need to pull & push yourself up. The skies the limit!

Climbing shoes were provided.

The right side is for the girls & those white tapes marks which tiles you can hold. You are not allowed to use the other tiles or the one mark yellow. Very chim right! The wall is like 4-storey high.

The seniors & juniors need to climb too.
& I ended my day with a cup of green disgusting energy booster lol.

WTH! Ab just told me he is getting married next yr!!! hahahaha! OI ARE YOU SERIOUS!!!!!! DUIT kahwin dah cukup ke!!!!!!????

tell me.

You might never know how lucky I feel to have met you. You erase my doubts & make me learn how to trust again. You make me learn to except those for who they are or use to be. You've change me. & I hope I've change you. Your patience. Your understanding. Your maturity. Your concern. Your kindness. Your sincerity. Your confidence. Your reliability. Adds in to that believe I need.

I like the way we communicate. I like you the way you are. I like when you listen. I like that you give me advice. I like that you learn to change. I like your flaws. I like that you have respect. I like that you are smart. I like that you work hard. I like that you are one kick ass drummer. I like your bangs of curls haha.

I don't know what you see in someone as 'average' as me. An imperfect mess. An introvert who might be too reserved for you & an extrovert, difficult to handle when you push the right buttons. We learn through experience how feelings can be a dangerous game to play. It can sometimes fade as soon as it came, but when it's true, it stayed & can never be replace. I never believe in the mythology of the 'right one'.

It's better off without reasons.

when i said.

Got selected for sports climb again for the 2nd trial. Left with 2 more trials to go before the final cut?! I'm VERY satisfied about the training this time round, cause I almost got to the top. The first time I tried, got stuck not even like a few feet off the ground.. it felt so shitty that I didnt pass that slanted part! So before the 2nd try, I told myself I MUST pass that slanted part and reach the top, if not, it's not worth the time and sweat. PLUS I will go home feeling like crap knowing I should have tried harder. Ok... maybe I'm taking this a little too serious. But this is my only way to venge my anger, through sports. Yes, recently I have become a very angry young lady. I should have taken up karate or continue with my teakwando instead but I don't know climbing makes me feel free and plus it is quite strategic. Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah... Sooooo....

As I told myself, I got pass that slanted part! & was reaching the top when I turned and look down. That's when the phobia of height kicks in!! High above ground and I decided to look down.. clever move lah babe. When that phobia kicks in, I forgot that I had the safety harness on, I just shouted at the one belaying(sp?) "FALLING!!" Such a waste, such a waste! 2 square left & I could have touch the top. I was the only girl among the newcomers who got that far hehe. Set the bar lah katakan. Sometimes, I get a little too competitive even with myself.

Physically I think I will be getting fitter for each training. I want that arm power so I can pull myself up frm each tiles without feeling tired and shaky halfway. Then probably I even gain a little confidence of my phobia of heights. Aiming to reach the top the next time! But I guess from this I learned that I'm a very determined individual esp when I said I must get there, I will one way or another. I got this far didn't I.

So what if I want a yellow mini cooper and call it little miss sunshine one day...?? Someday Someday. I love minis... seriously it's my only dream car.

Oh well back to a whole of a bollocks assignments.

4th.

SelamatHariLahir.
HappyBirthday.
God Bless.

ayah.

101.

2 weeks left before dateline.

4 Final Advert.

6 Postcards plus book design.

ok go.