love is timeless.

for the many more years to come i hope it'll be your hand i'm finally holding. happy THE 27th. love is timeless & as time flies while we having fun, i'm glad we met. happy 1 year mr. i.

mynewdrug.

i find it hard to sleep, what with being a design student. whenever there is project deadlines, you will have trouble sleeping, stress up & sometimes not being able to sleep at all. & what with me having insomnia. now my sleeping hours is haywire. the past 2 days, i slept at 7am & 6am the next day. i barely had what you can say a really good night sleep. & i'm not sure when i last had that. so i pretty much looked haggard these days.

but i found a way to soothed those edgy, disturbed, stress up nerves of mine. i found my relaxation drug. well it's not a drug as in pills & all, no thanks to those. i'm talking about a nice lovely aroma tea. it's called chamomile tea. yes, i try it & i must say i'm hooked to it cause it does have effect on me & it does help. plus it have a lovely aroma & taste, even if you drink it without sugar. but it is best with honey. chamomile tea is famous as a sleeping aid & for relaxation.

Facts about Chamomile Tea:

1. Chamomile tea is one of the most popular herbal teas in the world. It is renowned for its pleasant flavor and calming properties. Although famous as a sleep aid, chamomile tea also has many other health benefits.

2. It has traditionally been used to treat a large number of ailments including bronchitis, fever, skin irritations, and as a relief from menstrual cramps and intestinal discomfort.

3. It has been found to have antimicrobial and antioxidant properties, both essential for fighting disease. Other studies have pointed to its effectiveness as a sedative and as an anti-inflammatory agent.

4. The researchers concluded that chamomile tea increases the levels of certain compounds which are associated with antibacterial activity.

5. Chamomile tea appears to boost levels of glycine, an amino acid that relieves muscle spasms.

6. The compounds that were boosted by drinking chamomile tea remained in the system for at least two weeks, this points to the long term effectiveness of regular chamomile consumption.

7. Chamomile tea is a safe, relaxing beverage and can safely be used as a supplement to any mainstream medical treatment.

BM Episode #007: aku nak shopping!

aku rindu nak pegi shopping lah. tapi buat masa sekarang ni belum boleh lagi mungkin bulan depan agak agak nye lah. asal kan dapat shopping, asal kan dapat beli blouse baru ke, jeans baru ke, graphic tee baru ke, dress baru ke... ape ape ajelah asalkan dapat aku membuang bazir duit aku lol. orang tengah recession aku happy happy je. tapi sekarang ni aku tengah craving nak beli leather jacket. amaciam?

nak nak nak.

for mr. i

all i can say is i thank god each day for letting our path crossed. this is specially for you. well you know who you are. happy THE 27th soon.

hopefully to be a legal driver end of 2009!

I AM SOOOOOOO HAPPY!! why? WHY? WHY?????!

BECAUSE! i pass my final theory test (ftt) & that means no more driving theory test & ..... that also means .... i can proceed on to taking PDL & TP!!! mungkin cita cita aku untuk mendapatkan driving license by the end of this year akan terjadi... insya-allah!!!!

1st attempt for BTT : didn't sit for it (clash with school test)
2nd attempt for BTT: FAILED
3rd attempt for BTT: PASSED

1st attempt for FTT: missed out the date given
2nd attempt for FTT: PASSED!

so i wonder how many times will i take for my TP lol, hopefully just once. so now i will start putting aside some money, find an instructor & start lessons! mum is so happy too that she say she will help me out financially if i need it cause all she want is for me to get a driving license a.s.a.p. & i will do just that for you mum! then it will be easy for us to go out as a family woohoo. & untuk aku ape lagi backpacking lah one day! takpe berangan dulu. ok back to doing my school projects but before that aku nak berak dulu wahahahah!

so they tell me i'm doing fine.

i'm over reacting.
i'm over sensitive.
i'm not a man.
so treat me like a woman.
maybe now you'll know.

the letter B is back.

B for BUSY.

that's just what i'm in right now. busy busy busy. organizing my schedule so that i can balance my time for work & school. which of course, school will come first. trying to crack my brain for creative ideas for Project 1 & 2 Integrated Project module. getting richard as the lecturer is not that bad but i just don't fancy his way of teaching. so anyways i'm gonna go ahead & spent time doing my own personal portfolio for SIP (which will be in a few more months) & try to do a good job for project 2. as i am planning to make a book publication that showcase all of my work & i mean ALL. even if it lacks of creativity. from illustration to digital works that i have done before. as i realised doing project 2 which consist of creating a promotional kit for yourself is a good project to begin with. as i can use it as a way to promote myself as a general designer. & if it goes as i want, it be handy as a portfolio too.

so chop chop i've got a lot to get done! plus my FTT is coming soon too. so have to study for that so i can continue getting my driving license by end of this year hopefully! crossing my fingers and praying that i will get my bonus by end of this month. yes haha i was surprise that being a part timer we do get bonus. but the catch is we must at least work for 9mths and covering 450hours. gosh. well i just hope i'm able to get a bonus that will be so much of help.

& CONGRATULATION! SIS!!! she pass her O-Level, so proud of you & yesterday helped her to register for JAE Polytechnic Application. she chose Singapore Poly as her first choice, Creative Writting for Television and New Media. while 2nd choice from Ngee Ann, Child Psychology and Early Childhood. i hope she get the 2nd choice eventhough there is 12 other choices. as i do think she cut off & will do better in psychology etc. but either way i'm so proud of you as that make 2 of us getting a shot in chasing a Diploma! & will help you every way i can.

for me i will grad in 2010 which won't be that far off. degree next?? well yes no maybe.....

my life IS for rent.

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...

oh now i know!

arghhh! i just realised i get RICHARD for integrated project module!!!! 2 damn months. 2 damn months. i be damn! ok shall not think about it shall just focus. he's not that bad... right?

can i???

so if my style of design is this kind of style, can i get an advertising company for SIP?? scary shit to think about SIP. which will be in a few months time..... be prepare everyone. be prepare. be very prepare. muahahaha! amacam seri takut tak?? hehe.

& yeah this IS my design. thankyou. medium: illustrator CS2 & photoshop CS2.

http://behindthename.deviantart.com/art/Singapore-Food-Festival-108344736

BM Episode #006: Tahun Baru Azam Baru!? Pegidah.

aku dah cakap dah new year resolution can be bad for you. aku naik menyampah biler tiap tiap sampainya tahun baru, orang orang semua membuat azam baru. termasuk lah aku. tapi itu dulu sekarang dah malas aku nak membuat azam baru. ia hanya memberi semangat pada sampainya tahun baru aje tidaklah sampai ke akhir tahun kan. selalu nya begitu lah. tak payahlah tunggu nak tahun baru baru nak membuat azam baru. bila bila rasanya nak bertobat, dah sudah masanya untuk ubah hidup buatlah azam baru. everyday is a new day, tidak ke begitu. jadi kenapa lah mesti nak tunggu tahun baru aje untuk kita berubah?

tapi kalau ia memberi sesetengah orang itu satu semangat baguslah. tapi untuk aku malas nak fikir kan tentang azam baru lah new year resolution lah, ada sampai buat list yang panjang sekali tentang ape yang patut mereka ubahkan untuk tahun yang baru. tetapi berapa ramai yang akan ikut list yang mereka buat itu? conpfirm tak ramai kan kan.

untuk aku aku hanya nak jadi seorang yang lebih baik dari tahun lalu. itu je. dan aku nak improve kan diri aku ni supaya aku ada lebih confident dari yang aku dah ade untuk membuat perkara perkara yang aku nak buat dan yang akan membuat aku mencapai cita cita aku nanti. sebagai manusia ni kita hanya merancang tapi tuhan yang menentu kan. bukan ke begitu. jadi buat apa lah setiap tahun buat azam baru kalau azam azam yang lama semua belum menjadi haha. apa lah guna nya kan. jadi tak payah lah nak susah susah membuat azam baru, ia sama sekali tidak bagus untuk diri kita. nak berazam untuk ubahkan hidup, mula dari sekarang, bukan besok atau besok atau besok lagi atau bulan depan atau tahun depan! its now or never!

dan janganlah terburu buru nak berubah. yang bagus jangan keep track whether are we changing for the better or not, nak berubah, berubah je. biar orang yang nampak perubahan diri kita dari kita sendiri yang nampak. kerana kalau cermin kan diri sendiri ni kita selalu tidak nampak ape yang berubah walaupun pada kita kita sudah berubah. atau kadang kadang kita rasa kita sudah pun berubah tapi di mata orang sekeliling, kita masih sama! jadi spekulasinya jangan suka tengok cermin huahahaha!

selamat tahun baru 2009 ^_^ !

QUITSMOKINGNOW!

i dislike smokers. so when mr boyfriend who once was a heavy smoker decided to quit, i was so relieve. cause i dislike smokers for the bad breath they have & how their body stinks of cigarette smoke. it is just unattractive & i'm not the type of girl who are attracted by cigarette smelling guys. i think that singapore should ban smoking to help people lead a healthier life. one puff that you take you probably wont realise the harmful substance you inhaling in. the effects might not be wary now but it will later as you got older. & anyway you can save so much more $$ if you don't smoke. & look fresh & active, better even more focus. everyone is stress up but smoking is like an addictive drug which only numb the stress for a while. so what is the worth. beside you might just get your stress built up. & what is so great about welcoming cancer & other illness into your life.

i did this for my advertising module the last time & decided to edit it & include it in my portfolio. so quit now. it will be worth it not smoking. medium: photoshop CS2.

http://behindthename.deviantart.com/art/Quit-Smoking-108183982

ilovemylappie.

i've fetch back my only lappie & paid a sum of $600 for the LCD screen replacement. heartache. but it's worth it tho' as i might need this lappie for quite some time. & it is only a year old. still under warranty. & plus they change the motherboard as my wifi wasn't working. so i got a brand new motherboard!! & a lil souvenir, an external USB port.

new year resolution can be bad for you.

first post for 2009.

how did you guys celebrate your new year? mine was a boring one i would say but it didn't matter cause i'm not much of a new year party person. i like to take new year as something more personal. not something of a celebration. i was working on new year's eve so i barely feel the time flies plus i am so happy that 2008 was ending in a few hours.

2008 has only become part of the past now & i'm welcoming 2009 with open arms. there has been so much sad memories for 2008 which i am gladly happy to toss it out the window. but with those misery i've face, those dissapointment, trust, arguements, anger & all that it has taught me a lot about life & what comes out of it. it is only when a huge change came into your life that you really know how to appreaciate everything around you & everyone included. & 2008 was not only filled with unhappiness, out of all that it did bring some happiness which i treasure. like love always advice me, god gives you all this for a reason but out of all this he will give you ten times more happiness. & i believe that is true. but how sad i'm to say that i never was that thankful. everything happens for a reason that we don't know, but out of it, with our patience & willingness to accept he will give you a reward & show you guidance. i've seen mine.

so i hope.. no i pray that 2009 i will be a more strong will person & a more mature 22 year old. 2009 is an open blank book for me & i want to be more positive about things. & i want to improve in everything that i do. & i just want to grab every opportunities that comes my way & be the best at it. cause i've realised life is short to always live with regrets. i want to focus on what i always wanted & work harder to achieve it.

& it is not a new year's resolution. i'm done with all that. school will be in again next week. integrated project module will take 2 months. haha somehow i know i will survive it eventhough right now i feel likewise. it's good when you're not that over confident tho'. excited about school somehow! holiday mood is over & done with.

"New Year's resolutions can sometimes focus on our problems or insecurities such as being overweight, feeling unhappy in our jobs or feeling guilty about not devoting enough time to friends and family throughout the year. We chastise ourselves for our perceived shortcomings and set unrealistic goals to change our behaviour, so it's not surprising that when we fail to keep resolutions, we end up feeling worse than when we started. In 2009, instead of making a New Year's resolution, think positively about the year to come and what you can achieve."