TGIF!

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	Medium

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this is it.

the finale. the deadline. the submission. ok start spending your $$$ on printing people. i realised that sometimes my mind work the opposite way. when i think that i'm up to it, that i can do it i tend to ran out of ideas. but when i slum & lazy around & say fuck it i give up. tada! ideas comes in mind naturally. & without realising it i finish things up on time like i always do & its funny that on my previous post i said this "i'm really out of ideas for publication. so like it or not pat, i'm giving you what i can & what you ask me to change i probably can't do & edit any. just give me a grade for just passing the module will do."

who am i kidding!?

so i went for consultation to see pat to finalised my annual report design & i think it helps me alot. i love pat cause her criticism is constructional. she give your work critics that you can built up on. & that's what i did. eventhough sometimes i'm not sure why i hate my work being critic. maybe sometimes i do think im a perfectionist. but rejections & critics really helps to turn us into better designers. & they do say as designers we have to accept rejections & critics well, cause only then we can improve.

i'm almost done with my AR (sial lah last few days i thought i was gonna die!) & will be sending it for printing tomo. hope all goes well. cause i have a feeling that i will be spending more on this printout. but i don't really care. i'm working, money comes in, money goes out & money comes in again. so what do i have to lose, the only person i'm troubling is myself. as long that the printout is the way i want it to be. cause this mock up of the AR will be good for my portfolio.

sometimes i just wonder, how the hell did i manage. when just few days ago i'm talking like someone who just give up. maybe i was so tired physically & mentally of everything around. of how my life is, how drastic changes happened with just a blink of an eye, how that i have to work extra hard to support myself now, how i didnt get to meet mr boyfriend AT ALL cause he's busy with his exams, how it is so hard to focus at times & the list goes on. i think that's what really drag me down. the shitty things in life which when i look at the bright side of it, that's what actually helped to pull me up everytime. & there's only one person i thank.

god.

1234 days to freedom!

maybe bad things happen because

it's the only way we can keep remembering

what good is supposed to look like.

4 more days to freedom!

Jodi Picoult novel i'm currently reading is damn addictive. i'm already halfway finishing plus it is so addictive that i really can't put it down & stop thinking about reading it & finish up my projects instead.

i'm really out of ideas for publication. so like it or not pat, i'm giving you what i can & what you ask me to change i probably can't do & edit any. just give me a grade for just passing the module will do. my head hurts so much that i just want to get it over & done with. either way i'm done for integrated module just gonna print & finalised everything for submission. somehow i will pull thru. but im really out of ideas. i think i'm tired physically & mentally, i just need a break! i need a kitkat. & plus im hoping that the printing of all this projects will go well & i don't have to spend over $100. that'll totally suck! the thoughts of having to spend a $100 just on printing. shit. sometimes i think design school is stupid. not every student is fucking rich you know!

imseriouslyserious.

seriously i'm going crazy. i just want this block to end seriously. seriously my ideas have run dry & what you see is what you get seriously. seriously for the time being i have no life seriously. seriously i miss you badly & i know you miss me too seriously. seriously if you notice, it has almost been a month (or maybe i am exaggerating, but i swear it is...) that we didnt seriously go on a date. seriously i need to hold your hand. but at least we are still seriously holding on. seriously all for the sake of school. gosh sometimes i just hate being a student.

what with hell week?

i call the 3rd week (this week) of the sch block as 'hell week'. why? cause it's torturous physically & mentally. this is when everyone will rush everything & get most of it done before the 4th week which is usually the deadline for most assignments given. & this block have been crazy for me. i just want to get it over & done with! i cut off from work this week cause i really want to finish every assignment on time & only worry about getting it finalised & print on the 4th week. & boy do i have a lot of printing to get done!

but i'm quite happy that i manage to do quite a lot this few days. halfway done with integrated project. promotion kit done, just left with 3 more postcards to do before i wrap everything up & send it for print. phew. & now i'm doing the annual report design for publication which i already did the 3 spread (6pages) important dividers & got my flow for the whole annual report design, i just hope pat don't ask me to change the concept whatsoever as i do think i did the design pretty well & the flow of the concept is there. but who am i to say, lecturers are like our clients. so can say i 'm on the right track with my planned time management & will get all the project done on time. work can wait. when march arrive, i'm going to work like crazy cause once i hit that target i want in my bank i'm booking my PDL & TP by May!

but i'm pretty anxious about march what with mum & sisters birthday coming up & i have only one module left for sem 2.2 & then proceeding to sem 3.1 which means i'm in my 3rd and final year in TP & graduating next year. gosh time really flies. i really hope to grad with a good GPA that can cut off for a degree. but of course i won't jump in to taking a degree right after i grad. meletup otak aku gitu! i'll get myself ready for the working world first & after that i will take my degree, well that if my GPA is good enough but if not i can always get myself a good career with the design industry, save up, jadi orang & get married lol.

soon it will be the real world for me.

gold & silver.

i decided its about time i join in some art/design competition, it be good that my talent can get some exposure. its not about winning or losing, neither do i care about the prizes. so i decided to donate SG15 to this competition going on, organized by Yellow Octopus http://www.yellowoctopus.com.sg/. plus it's good to know that Yellow Octopus is in the list of companies for TP Design School SIP.

so donating SG15 (this goes to Business Times Budding Artist Fund BT BAF), we get a competition kit & all you need to do is, design the gift box with any medium, digital or traditional art with the theme they gave. i love the gift box & the competition kit is pretty cool. you get a gift box template to design on & a gift box that you can keep for your own use. plus the brochure design they did was pretty awesome. i like the style they have to this competition, it's kind of my style to design. so i decided to do a traditional art piece for the gift box. getting my hands dirty with gold & silver markers. pretty much something of random illustration. send it off to Yellow Octopus office just now & the result of selected pieces will be out in march! so for now shall wait & see. http://www.keepthedreamalive.yolo.sg/

& i'm going to start on a personal business involving my creative talent of doing this style of illustrations, been thinking of it quite a while back, thinking of starting off with custom made design for canvas shoes. surveying for fabric markers, do tell me if you people know anywhere to get them beside ArtFriend.

yeah i did this by hand. surprised at how it turned out to be.

territory vol 9.

my favourite graphic magazine. bought it few weeks back. SG15, Basheer.

BM Episode #008: mirip muka awak.

pelakon indon yang mirip mirip macam rupa encik boyfriend. mungkin aku saja yang rasa begitu tapi kalau encik boyfriend pakai hoodie dan snow cap dia, dengan rambut panjang yang seakan sama mirip mirip tu ada lah dan kalau dia tak pakai snow cap dia seperti sekarang ni dan ikat rambut dia yang rock tu ade lah jugak mirip nya disitu lol. encik boyfriend ni kadang kadang handsome dia tu ada jugak tau cuma nak kena biar dia rajin jadi stylish sikit. kalau terbaca awak jangan kembang eh hahaha. kita nak puji je.

long overdue: marina barrage.

i realised it has been a while since i blog visually. well i just don't feel like sharing photos for the time being, probably as soon as everything is over & done with, then you'll get to see more photos of my life happenings. i really enjoy marina barrage, tho' not on weekends. cause the place is way stuffy with people around. but it really have a very nice view of the city (avoiding the construction side) & sometimes if you're lucky you'll get to catch a nice sunset. great for those photography lovers & quite a good place for kite flying.

twilight fever

How can i decide what`s right?
When you`re clouding up my mind
I can`t win your losing fight,
All the time

How can i ever own what`s mine,
When you`re always taking sides
But you won`t take away my pride,
No not this time
Not this time

(chorus)
How did we get here
When i used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think i know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that i cant see
What kind of man that you are,
If you`re a man at all
Well i will figure this one out
On my own (i'm screaming i love you so)
On my own (my thoughts you can't decode)

Do you see what we`ve done
We`re gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we`ve done
We`re gonna make such fools of ourselves

There is something i see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

soalan bodoh.

1)status of you and the last person you sent a text to.
- encik boyfriend

2)do you have any plans for saturday?
- memang ade keje sebelah petang, sebelum tu buat keje sekolah.

3)when was the last time you got flowers?
- aku bukan minah bunga.

4)has anyone told u that u looked like someone famous?
- iye pernah, orang cakap aku ada iras wajah Mary Kate & Ashley Olsen. ade kata muka aku macam mirip michelle rodriguez entahlah kan tapi tu pada sesetengah org pada aku aku tak mirip siapa siapa pun. mirip muka ibu aku je masa kecik dulu lol.

5)Do you love anyone?
- iye.

6)Are you sad or happy?
- Serabut. nak kata happy tak jugak sedih pun tak jugak.

8)Have you read the book Twilight?
- iye peminat habis buku series twilight. aku dah baca new moon dan eclipse tgl nak beli breaking dawn!

9)If you had a chance to get back together with your ex, would you?
- tak rasa boleh pun dah lama tak contact.

10)Do you think your attractive?
- in a way. everyone is attractive lol.

11)What do you like about yourself?
- aku terlalu suka berdikari. independent dari dulu.

12)Is there someone on your mind?
- sudah tentu.

13)Do you think someone is talking behind your back?
- confirm ade punye. dah kita semua manusia tulah tabiat buruk kita semua. so tak perlu lah nak nak jadi hypocrite.

14)Do you like it when guys have egos?
- kalau tak sampai melebih.

15)Do you hate your friends?
- tak lah aku tak senang benci kawan.

16)Do you remember your first crush's name?
- hrmmm mesti lah ingat lol.

17)What are you?
- human and a design student.

18)did you kiss anyone today?
- maksiat oi!

19)are you a mean person?
-kalau aku cakap aku baik, orang akan menyampah. kalau aku cakap aku jahat, pun orang benci. senang cerita, seimbang la. kalau orang pijak kepala aku nanti aku pijak kepala dia balik amacam.

20)are you excited for anything?
- SIP

21)have you let someone down in the last week?
- entah lah pulak kan.

22)are you close with your siblings?
- close jugak.

23)do you get along with your parents?
- lebih pada ibu aku je.

24)are you in a good mood right now?
-tak lah sangat banyak keje sekolah nak dibuat.

25)who was the last person you spoke on the phone for over an hour?
- encik boyfriend je. unless kawan lama yang dah lama tak bebual dengan.

26)do you like to make the first move?
- if desperate time comes for desperate measures mungkin lol.

27)do you hate it when people smoke around you?
- aku memang anti orang merokok sebab tu aku suruh encik boyfriend berhenti.

28)whats something you really want right now, be honest:
- duit berjuta.

29)whats the longest you've ever talked on the phone?
- 3 ke 4 jam gitu adelah.

30)has anyone ever sang to you?
-Pernah.

31)do you get emotional easily?
- tengok keadaan.

32)has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
- iye pernah kerana aku ni ade bulu mata yg naturally thick and long and curl lol. tak main mascara.

33)is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
- mesti la ada.

34)has someone ever made a promise to you and broken it?
- biasalah tu.

35)do you want someone back in your life?
- kalau boleh aku nak arwah nenek aku balik :(

february.

it going to be a very busy february for me. now that i'm having 2 module this block, hello publication! & having integrated project still till end of february & what more to give a thought about how i want my portfolio to be like for SIP. design is soo crazy i tell you. & i can't believe i have one more block to go before my 3.1 which means i will be in my final year in Temasek Design School & will grad by april 2010. scary shit. then it will be the real world. get a stable career & all. plus i need to save up to take my PDL & TP so hopefully i can pass & be a legal driver by end of this year. insya allah.

so i probably wont be blogging that much for the time being. eventhough i have lots to share. so last past few days, had a BBQ Pit with the staff at work, i'm active at facebook so those who have my link can view the photos & the videos i posted of the BBQ. it was at pasir ris park on a thursday night haha. been a while since i 'return' to pasir ris. then celebrated my 1yr with mr. boyfriend on saturday & decided to check out sungei rd cause i never been there before lol, it was like a whole different scene of singapore, but sadly didnt find any vintage camera that was good enough. then we went off to visit the marina barrage. a great place to chill, great view, great weather, u can like get blown away with the wind over there. will return again cause we decided to do kite flying the next time lol. photos are at facebook. to say facebook is way better than friendster. friendster is so over & done with lol.

so start tomo i have to focus for school. mr. boyfriend going to get busy with his school stuff too. since we are both going 3yr soon. haha let's get stress together!!! so that we can grad together too & get over poly life. poly life will start soon for my sis haha good luck to her!

& time will pass by fast for sure. it's already february. i wanna get my rest now. tomorrow & the many more days will be hectic for me. & i hope i can get a lil budget off to buy that graphic book i wanted.....hmmmmm!!!! $50 bucks but hell of a lot worth it.