get go.

cause we're moving again.

HAPPY 27th Birthday.

hearts.

im with the band.

theunwrittenagenda, taken on 28/01/06.

i can't stop laughing looking back at that photo of us. i miss jamming & guess what, since we love playing music by green day, we decided that we should cover green day new album & we starting with 'The Last of the American Girls'. got bass solo, i loike. nice choice to cover on khai. after soooooo long of not going jamming, i think all of us are rusted & busted. but maybe we still have it somewhere. but i want a little difference somehow this time round. since we known each other for years, let loose abit. & rock like a 'rock' band does ok. & hope we can keep the groove & cover most of green day new album.

theunwrittenagenda, what a name huh! i don't even know where that came from. we should just called ourselves THEBand lol or rename our band name to something that will let us have more semangat to jam, like THEmisfits, just a thought. i think everyone have their own personality back then & even now. we looked more like nerds then. khai with that mohawk of his trying to look punk? & me looking like some tomboy chick there. omg. naz look like those guy who play in those malay jiwang bands lol & ken he just trying to have that 'fierce' look. all of us look so misfits. this is walking down memory lane & i think we should take another new band photos to compare then & now. i bet it will be so funny! cause now all of us have outgrown that childish looks, don't you agree? i can't wait for jamming next saturday & i'm bringing MIKA!

mad about you shoes.

currently i think im going mad about shoes. i dunno why. first at most my favourite shoes have to be by converse. i just love them, simple & easily wearable, suits with almost any style & give you the character somehow. right now i own a Jack Purcell. one that i really love wearing till it is all dirty (i think that's the nicest thing about canvas shoes when they get dirty) & now in need of a good wash. maybe i will get another Jack Purcell. mum bought it for me when she went JB & she say she going to get me another new one. so this is some of those awesome shoes i would love to buy.

i want another JackPurcell & maybe a chuck taylor.

& yeah i want to find those pointed type of shoes like these.

Dr Martens

somehow i have an urge to buy & own a Dr Martens. oh sexy.

this song is for you.

p/s: i miss the you & me that we once were. sometimes i miss the old you i know.

4 in the morning.

feeling really tired today, cause i slept at 4AM yesterday, surfing round, checking emails, watch YouTube, facebook, wasting time & i tried to use twitter but ends up deleting my account after i created it haha cause i don't really get it, what is the fun about twitter, not yet probably. plus i'm still in love with using facebook. so in a few hours will have to go to work BUT i feel like going to bed again! started to pick out 20 of my best works to print & hope that most of it is not school assignments, cause i do my own designs too & will include those that are showcase on competitions & stuff. i need to make this portfolio speaks out the quality of work that i can do, even tho' sometimes i do flare in the area of being simple.

nothing much currently, beside that my group really need to work on a faster pace for advertising campaign, god help us! i don't even know if i can get any ideas, totally blank right now. or maybe i just don't get it with ferdi lol. but just hope our work will somehow pick up the pace & be done with by the end of the block.

& seeing seniors graduating, wearing those graduation rope around really motivates me. that'll be me next year, insyaallah. anyway enjoy this. yeah im a big fan of sarimah ibrahim since like forever. i just love how naturally beautiful she is & she is one of those role model celebrity i like to look up to cause her success is so down to earth & she herself is so down to earth. oh hell peace!

Alecia Beth Moore.

i would kill to have a voice like her's & always love the hair.

breathe easy.

hell begin today.

advertising campaign.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

happy 27th.

this was his surprise birthday gift. happy 27th birthday to mryouknowho. why this you may asked? well it's his 27th birthday & we're officially together on the 27th.01.08. so this gift is a more meaningful one for his 27th. one that he will always remember & will always have with him instead of the very common birthday gift for guys you know. im discreet and loyal & i don't usually show affection in public, but my inside feelings for you is tremendous. thanks for always being there!

my not so blue monday.

it's has been a while since we went out as one. so i decided to give a movie treat to mum & sisters. go ice cream crazy at swensen & then we went shopping around chinatown. i had a great monday well spent! we watch the uninvited. it's not such a bad movie, tho' the ending is a little too boring, but it have an interesting storyline. expect a little twist at the end. a dwell in a pyscho mind i can say. how it's played through. so the ending will sort of keep you rewinding the scenes over & over to actually really understand. but it is not such a bad movie & plus the lead actress name was anna in this movie, i loike.

"i finish what you asked me to"
"what did i ask you to do?" "i finish what i started."

BM Episode #011: engkaulah ratu hatiku...

"tahun ni korang tak pun wish atau kasi ibu hadiah..."

dua kali dah aku dengar ibu berkata begitu. tapi aku diam aje, tak tercakap pun padanya yang pada aku, hari ibu hari-hari dan bukan hanya setahun sekali. mungkin tahun ni berbeza dari tahun tahun yang lain. aku selalu beri ibu hadiah atau kad yang aku buat sendiri. aku masih ingat tahun tahun yang lalu tak ketinggalan tiap tiap tahun aku buat kan ibu kad dan pernah sekali aku nampak kad kad yang dari zaman aku sekolah menengah masih ibu simpan. tahun ni berbeza sikit. tapi tak semestinya tak ada kad tak ada ucapan tak ada hadiah, aku lupa tentang hari ibu.

tiap tiap malam sebelum aku tidur, aku selalu pandang muka ibu, nyelah nanti kalau satu hari aku dah kahwin dah kena pandang muka suami kan. dan tiap kali aku pandang muka ibu, aku berdoa yang tuhan akan panjang kan umur ibu supaya aku dapat meluangkan masa dengannya.

tiap malam aku pandang muka ibu aku rasa bersyukur yang aku ada seorang ibu sepertinya. seorang yang sanggup berkorban apa saja demi kami. mungkin inilah orang kata kasih ibu terhadap anak tak ada tandingan nya. kerana ibu dan aku tak ada bezanya. perangai aku sama seperti perangai ibuku. dan memang kerana persamaan inilah yang buat aku dan ibu rapat sekali dan aku akan terasa amat sensitive jika ada sesiapa yang melukai hati ibuku.

tiap malam aku pandang muka ibu, aku dapat rasakan yang hidup ini singkat dan aku harus bersyukur apa adanya, kerana selagi ibu ada, hidup ini penuh bermakna. kerana tanpanya tiadalah aku. dan dialah ilham ku sejak aku melihat dan mengenali dunia yang tidak berwarna warni seperti yang dilukis. dialah semangatku untuk terus berjaya.

satu hari nanti aku akan tahu ertinya menjadi seorang ibu.

comes JULY.

im anxiously awaiting SIP starting in july. wondering which company i will end up doing my 3 months with. i email to Yellow Octopus but they didnt reply & honestly i'm just lazy to chase after the company i want. why not just leave it to the school, better with surprises. im sure the school have good companies in their database & i will end up with one anyways. i've bought my portfolio which cost me $93, but worth it as i will be using it for a lifetime .... so now i going to go and pick out at least 20 of my best works to reprint & pile it in, ready for SIP interviews. im nervous tho' cause i always think that no matter what im a sucker in design.

4 days of not getting to work my ass off, i already miss working & the plp working there. it is always fun to spent time working with all of them. work is like my second home. i will always get a good laugh each time im working & nothing much to stress about since my work is not related to design, which is good cause our brain needs some other exposure instead of always repeating ourselves doing the same thing, can die hor! im happy with this job, plus the timing is so flexible that i can earn while im still schooling. just need to manage my time well. i can't wait for D&D (dinner and dance), comes july i think. pejam celik it's already one year of working there & this will be the first D&D i attend. & the theme this year is 'red carpet'. that will be interesting.

& its been almost 3 weeks i think, of not going on a real date with mr youknowwho. since we are both busy being seniors. i can't imagine how it will be to graduate together next year insyaallah. i keep imagining us both taking photos in our graduation rope with diploma in hand. chey dah sampai ke menara gading gitu! for sure i will want us to do a makeover photoshoot for that, cause it is not everyday that you graduate. so im looking forward to this weekend definitely. what with this being the month of 'may'. oh you know i love surprises!

goodnight.

phew.

again i manage my time well to finish my project for brand packaging on time. cross fingers and hope the printing goes well. even tho it is sad that i didnt get to work & earn much money for this month, school always come first. & i'm counting down the days till the next move. this time it is so much much better. on another note it is annoying how people can now curse "YOU SWINE!" more than they usually do, but that is the same as saying "YOU PIG!" so i guess, it's not so bad.

gd night world.

....

i had a dream, a really good one but,

the unfortunate thing about dreams,

there's always the part where you wake up.

viewfinder.

unless a photo has been doctored, if something appears in a photo, it was really there. it's a version of history you can trust, even if it's just history as seen through one person's eyes. despite the inevitable element of distortion, despite the difference between what the eyes sees and what the camera records, a frozen moment whose physical veracity is more accurate than memory.

photographs represents our endless battle against time, our determination to preserve a moment; the sweet baby girl before she becomes a difficult teenager; the handsome young man before his body is won over by baldness and fat; the honeymoon trip to hawaii, before the happy couple become two strangers, living angrily under the same roof. i have a hunch that our obsession with photography arises from an unspoken pessimism: it is in our nature to believe that the good things will not last.

we put such faith in this flimsy mnemonic device, a moment written in light. but photos provide a false sense of security. like our own flawed memory, they are guaranteed to fade. over time, the constrast within a photo diminish, the coutours soften, the details blur. we take photographs in order to remember, but it is the nature of photograph to forget.

- The Year of Fog.

monkeyboy.

i have a new adopted pet. its name is monkeyboy & it live in facebook pet's society. i love monkeyboy very much. i'm going to buy him clothes & new furnitures & play with him so he will be the happiest online pet.

from a nomad point of view.

its a love hate. on a night like this where sleep don't befall on me & i toss & turn, that it get me in deep thoughts. thoughts about how someone used to play an important role in my life but now, seem so far away & suddenly felt like a stranger whom i once used to know or thought i knew. i still remember those good old days. when i woke up with the sun shining on my face,

another great day.

the sun is still shining but now it's shining on a different surface, one that is monotonous but yet filling up with different shade of colours that wasn't really there before. sometimes i do get another great day. it has been a year since, everything ended. but i will always remember it like it was just yesterday. maybe it is best if i choose to forget & don't let it lingers too much. cause one day things will make sense. don't they? everything always happened for reason.

cause life is simple, you make decisions & never look back on it.

not that over yet.

i've finish the 4th & final book by Stephanie Mayer, Breaking Dawn. but of course i'm still so much so addicted to the whole twilight saga. bought the DVD few weeks back, love the behind the scenes DVD they included, now i can watch twilight whenever i feel like it. New Moon will probably premiere end of this year, can't wait for that! i pretty much don't care even if the movies are not as good as the book is, cause stephanie meyer just make the myth about vampires & werewolves that addictive. mr boyfriend just have to deal with me drooling over edward..... well he can drool over bella.

i want to lose control in a rock show.

3rd week already which mean it's time to focus & start developing visual graphics for brand packaging. SO i need some MUSE to begin with. i always have a fond thing about british rockstars. matthew bellamy is mine. enjoy! *only for headbangers.

Yeah it's holding me

Morphing me

And forcing me to strive

To be endlessly

Cold within

I'm dreaming I'm alive.